I thought I had everything all figured out, but every time something feels good and secure it quickly falls away, there are so many things I want to get off my chest but nobody I trust enough to talk to, I mean, I trust my girlfriend, but I'm afraid talking to her about all the stuff that's been eating at be because I'm afraid I'll hurt her. The only reason I'm saying anything here is because I know nobody checks my Blogger. So I'll just come out and say it, I've been feeling really depressed for the last couple months, and it's been getting worse every day I've been giving serious though to suicide, but every time I think about it I just want to curl up and cry. I'll go to take something for a headache, and I'll want to take the whole bottle, or I'll hold a knife and want to stab myself or slit my wrists. I'm afraid of what I might do, I don't want to die, but I'm just so lost, and scared. Everything hurts.

I want someone, I need someone near me right now, but I don't have anyone I trust, or anyone I'm willing to hurt with my depression, so I just keep my mouth shut and suffer alone.

I feel like I'm drowning.

I need help and I don't know how to ask for it.